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Temperance

by Noll Griffin

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boy garden this album carries a hymn-like power to it. it sees the scars left behind by religious trauma, and loves them. this album is a serene masterpiece. i am incredibly grateful for Noll's songwriting. Favorite track: Antidote.
sadiewhitecoat
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sadiewhitecoat Truly one of my favourite albums of all times.The lyrics are so good that they make most other songwriters look really bad, the guitar work is beautiful and the vocals are absolutely stunning and out of this world. If you're not listening to this over and over, then what are you doing with your life, really... Favorite track: Judgment Day.
Jeremy Walker
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Jeremy Walker easily my #1 album of all time. carnal gods leer gets me every listen <3 Favorite track: Carnal Gods Leer.
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1.
Antidote 03:01
sometimes you have to pour gasoline on the garbage pit the abyss grin of crystal teeth before it tries to hurt you anymore it's rotted too deep to ignore make it numb and rupture it no fence of basement body art and broken promises can keep it like it was before when the flames have all forgiven you and there's no remains left to take home sink like a splinter in your empty room isolation is the only heaven you can know cuz they threatened you with archaic orphan trains your severed fingers in a shoe box underneath your mother's bed and others hit on you in clouds of secondhand smoke and motion sickness dirty mechanic hands and long-stemmed roses made a mockery of your living dead and everyone was lying when they said they knew your pain they just wanted your naive introspection through your doll eyes losing color by the day learn the art of having nothing nice to give them don't sleep with the lights off, the dark is not for you don't sleep like you haven't witnessed all you've been through
2.
TMI 02:42
Your irritating pen pal, your starry-eyed apprentice I'm fascinated, maybe even fancy you, ridiculous terrified to catch your eye but twice as much I knew I had to try I crush my own ideas, no prescription to be amorous taking pictures for you, waiting for your messages Embarrassing, you know everything, is my desire for suffering? Throw these in a bowl of fractured words that we won't touch Sneaky little heartbeats make me think too much I'll spill it in my sketchbooks, scratch it in my diary Fight it when ignited and my fingers slide inside of me Apologies, this turns my needs into something frightful and forgive me please This is how I deal with an awkward mess I shouldn't feel Angrily come after me, I'm out of line, I broke the deal Seeing things I shouldn't see, No comment, I meant it, but you're haunting me Throw these in a bowl of fractured words that we won't touch Sneaky little heartbeats make me think too much
3.
Flighty 03:47
Happy sacrificial knives passing fist to voice to eyes I don't know if you'll let me go this time Not when I'm so very easily squeezed to death Every city thinks I like it best Bind my luggage to my ribs and pass me land to land Transmute my love to give, I'll taste myself on other hands I wanted running off to heal me but it won't My wasted time still likes to drag me further on from home I signed off on receipts of damage, promised I'd do better, what pain can't I manage? Flushed fake names in train station bathrooms I close my eyes, sometimes it's like I never met you Ignoring unknown numbers, naked photos, on my phone I'll never get my secrets back but I can be alone And no one knows me when the mourning's breaking down They macerate the last remains from when I came around Nowhere on my backbone has a place to graft on wings My flesh is trickery, I fly away like anything I wanted giving in to heal me but it won't My traumatized desires like to drag me further on from home
4.
LDR 02:56
I wish you'd send me home in your shirt half-buttoned and hiding little blooms of hurt. The good kind, I wouldn't mind covering my collarbones pressing them with fingertips to make me moan all over again when I leave for the world of mine and you fill your time with your usual work. Twenty hours in an aisle seat, against all logic if you wanted it, all you had to do was ask me. One word from you and we'd meet, it took so many more to say you'd pass, and even now I breathe out hopeless dreams of changing that. You had the magic act and prop gun, I know the stage was made for blanks but fingers on my chest say I'm still bleeding out, in front of everyone. So I'll hang around the airline waiting room, watching each departure from the chairs, holding postcards like I've never been there, giddy for each echoed destination, carving hearts out of the constellations when they leave soon. Pretending, with a hand around my empty bag, that I'm on my way to see you.
5.
Devotional 04:01
You get me like spilled milk sour in my eyes a televangelist's wife, smeared mascara when she cries You get me with my arms up praising on the floor Communion with the dead from my tongue to your core All traditions blended, all permission is yours Rolling vision skyward, my mortal ribs are sore Rip my hips of purity, the halos in my eyes are illusions dragged and dirty, dust circles in the light you get me pale as petals like you lay me in the ground funeral flowers dripping white where they're found getting dirt above my heart to keep me around forgiveness at the hitch in your breath as a holy sound Red eyes like the tips of incense, no confession gets us out of this the cemetery gate inherent in my escaping bliss you get me showing all the mercy I've ever allowed But oh my god, I'm so godless and hopeless who could bless us now? see you through a cloudy prism, posed like a stoned angel in the window of your prison fuck me over and tear away at me, knotting up all the threads of destiny fuck me like you've never loved a freak before, we can all sort it out at heaven's door How can I have a heartache dressing candles for our fate? Carving names when apart cuz' my savior makes me wait Cuz' my healer makes me bleed at the edge of their affection One more serpent held down in their collection
6.
Judgment Day 05:43
The devil and the distant lovers Spread together once in front of me And with thorns embracing my forehead In your careless wasteland, now I see I don't really want to tear your throat out with my own A waxwing with a hawk's brutality and vengeful need to shake your bones I tried to keep decisions quiet, how dare I like you defiantly When you want to die alone divining with the bones you pulled from me I crushed glass early and pushed the shards Into my ugly heart, to get it hardened Cuz I always knew deep down that you Would gladly do it for me if I didn't start Ten of swords, no two of cups It's hopeless now for both of us No favor at your side, no ecstacy Walk over me, I know you show no mercy on your enemies I don't really want to tear your throat out with my own Waxwing with a hawk's brutality and vengeful need to shake your bones I was all falling melting for every scraped together inch of you And your teeth were sinking in but what could a smitten schoolboy do? When I crushed glass early and pushed the shards Into my ugly heart, to get it hardened Cuz I always knew deep down that you Would gladly do it for me if I didn't start Wanting wisdom, delicate, knees on the floor, your eager pet You think you vivisect me, no relief, your lancet learns my grief As if it helps to drain, Mistaking honest rage for fleeting pain As if the power's yours When I crushed glass early and pushed the shards Into my ugly heart, to get it hardened Cuz I always knew deep down that you Would gladly do it for me if I didn't start Now you can't hurt me more than a pin's length and sharpness Through my hand, some broken skin, once held out to understand The places that you've been but my words were never worthy, And I'm not someone you'd chase down You turn your eyes away from the prey you couldn't kill now It's okay, okay? Weren't we nothing anyway? No chance to try, no time to say That I could've loved you in a while and learned your ways I could've loved you Through the length of judgment day
7.
You've got mythical selkie eyes, endless in darkness, russet slivers embedded to surprise And my tongue is tied at the thought of light plunging through each ardent iris, drawing pupils tight To reveal the burnished shades only known in the space Of a gaze that flutters out beneath my fingers on your face We could be tangled silhouettes against the mattress edge Tearing fragile hems that get between us in my head Careless for the blankets folding shadows on the floor Leave the room destroyed but I don't care, I want you more And to know what morning looks like sliding down your skin Hours stretched between your freckles, neck to shoulder giving in To the promises of motion and a shudder we could share Or lure me out with dusky lashes I would follow anywhere Angel scars lend order to my sinful injuries Trying to remind how all this wanting ends for me But I find your image spreading through the things I fantasize Now you've got your name all scrambled in the love stories of mine Leave me daring in my daydreams Worthless compared to what could be Birthdays, cake for breakfast, always embrace you when you Come home, pulses running free There'd be so many places calling, the ocean, dive bars, diners, Central Park in spring, we'll go. And you don't know I'd trade California winters, for walking in the snow, as long as we were close I only wish that you would see If you're lonely, I'm all yours, just notice me

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I recorded three of these on my phone and didn't have the heart to redo them and lose the immense emotional intensity since they were written and sung directly as the events that inspired them were going on, so forgive me for their quality. I hope you enjoy them anyway.

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released August 4, 2015

All songs written, performed, and recorded by Noll Griffin. Mastered by Jessie Blue.

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